Damn hoodrats! Part 2

Yesterday I had some young dude stop by my house (another one of those hoodrats that I spoke of in a previous post) and ask me, “Does your lawn need mowed?”.
I peeked around him at the grass and then thought to myself, “What is he trying to ask?”
My grass is a foot tall so I would say it needs mowed. But was he just stopping by to engage in pleasant conversation about my lawn or was he asking me if he could mow it?
What I wanted to say was: “Yep, it needs mowed. It’s getting pretty tall and looks like shit. I should probably get out there and mow it one of these days. Thanks for taking the time to stop by and ask me. Have a nice day.”
But instead I said: “No, it’s just fine. I’ll mow it myself when I get the chance.”
Then he fidgeted nervously and said, “Okay, I was just checking.” and turned around and walked away.
Maybe I was wrong about these people in the ‘hood. They might actually be quite friendly. Hell, this kid stopped by just to check on my grass!
I should have invited him in for milk and cookies and played some Xbox with him. We could have even talked about grass for a while. I might have actually made a new friend.

You don’t think so? Yeah, your probably right. The kind of grass he likes probably isn’t the kind you mow. And inviting him into the house would have given him the time to decide what he was going to steal the next time we weren’t at home.
To quote myself, “Damn hoodrats!”

Well that sucked

Told ya I’d see ya tomorrow. Yesterday passed without incident, and the world continues as usual. No signs of an Anti-Christ or Jesus or the end of the world.
Damn, and I was hoping to see some kind of supernatural action yesterday. What a disappointment. *sigh*

666

I guess the world is supposed to end today or some such thing. The anti-Christ is supposed to rise perhaps? I guess we’re all doomed!
This may be my last post, so I wanted to tell everyone I loved them before “THE END”
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And I’ll see ya tomorrow suckas! P

Thunder

You ever been in a deep sleep and then been awoken by a clap of thunder so damn loud that it nearly gives you a heart attack? Then you sit up in bed for a minute afterwards a bit disoriented and wonder what the hell just happened?
That happened to me this morning. Wish I would have seen that storm, but I fell back to sleep after I realized what the heck was going on P

Time together

I don’t know how many times over the last few weeks people have asked Donna and I if we ever get time alone together. The answer is always no. We never get time together because Donna is always working and we always have the kids. We have no one who willingly wants to watch all three of our kids at once.

Next week we will be taking the kids to grandma and grandpa’s for a couple hours while we go catch a movie. We’ll spend two hours watching X-Men 3 and then have to go get the kids and go back home. That’ll be all the time we get together probably for the next several months. Two hours watching a movie isn’t really time alone together. We’ll be sitting in front of a big screen, all of our attention will be on the movie rather than each other. So it doesn’t really count.

We wouldn’t even be going to the movies if we hadn’t won free movie tickets from Blingo. Last time we went to the movies we used movie tickets we had won from Blingo. And I think that is the last time we had time together.

I wish Donna and I could get more free time alone. Without having any kids around. To us it is just a wishful fantasy. Like wishing to win the lottery. We can always dream about it but it probably won’t ever happen. At least, not for another 18 years.

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Sometimes I don’t even feel like a person around here. I feel like an automaton. Like I’m just here.
I might as well not have any feelings at all because my feelings are sometimes stomped right into the ground.
Last night for instance. Donna wanted to get a little frisky in bed. For some reason my whole body hurt and my legs were cramped and hurting like hell. The farthest thing on my mind at that time was sex. The only thing I could think about was getting the pain under control. I’d took a couple pain pills and went and layed in bed. I was called an asshole because I just layed there. That made me feel worse.
Earlier Donna got a call from work. Shortly after that I asked her if she had to leave (to go to work) and I got snapped at by her. Then she walked out the door without saying a word to me. I just wanted to know why she had to go to work and when she’d be back. But I guess what she does is none of my business.
Hello? Am I even here? I must be a robot because sometimes I’m treated like I’m not even human. (Hmmm, that sounds like something someone said to me once. *sigh*)

Geez I’m fat

A little over a week ago I weighed myself for the first time in years. I've been scared to step on a scale until now because I knew that I had gained a TON of weight. I stepped on the scale and watched the dial turn almost all the way around…it was a 300 pound max scale. I weighed 275 pounds.
I wasn't shocked to see it because I expected to weigh more. But 275 pounds is a lot of weight for a small-framed guy who's 5' 7".
For about the last month I've been becoming more self-conscious about my weight and my health. This is what prompted me to see how much I really weigh.
It's hard to believe that around 9 years ago I was at 150 pounds and in the best shape of my life. I worked out at the gym almost every day. My favorite machine was the elliptical. I fell in love with that thing from the first moment I stepped on it.
The first time I got on it was for only 10 minutes because it provides a very intense workout which was something I didn't expect. But I loved how it made me feel! Pushing myself even when it hurt and getting my heart rate up to about 180 BPM felt great! My whole body hurt for a while after first starting to use the elliptical but I didn't care. After a while my body got used to it and I could push myself longer and harder on it.
Seven months after I joined the gym I had dropped around 20 pounds of fat and gained around 20 of muscle. At that point I would do my weight lifting, then move to the elliptical which I did for ONE hour at a time with a resistance of 3, forward and backward…NONstop. After that I would move the the treadmill and jog for about 10 minutes and then go to an exercise bike for 10 minutes. It hurt like hell to push myself that hard but it felt good at the same time. The sense of well-being I had all the time was great and that's what kept me motivated to keep working out. Plus, the fact that I burned about 2,500 calories a day and I had a MEGA metabolism that allowed me to eat what I wanted and as much as I wanted and STILL lose fat! But I ate healthy, I didn't smoke or intake anything unhealthy at all. I didn't have to starve myself to lose weight because of all the calories I burned and my high metabolism. That was good, because I love to eat!
Anyhow, I've decided that I want to quit smoking and get back into shape. If I can talk my wife into it then next year on tax refund I want to purchase and elliptical machine. I've been wanting some type of exercise equipment for years but always end up getting something for my computer. This year I got this crappy Xbox 360.
I predict that I could be back into shape and lose 125 pounds in a year…or less. I just have to wait and see what happens. I know I could do it though. I want to do it. I can't WAIT to do it!

Updates

Talked to my mom this morning. She will start her radiation and chemo next week. She went up to Lincoln yesterday to get checked and marked for radiation.
The drugstore had to special order her Xeloda chemo pills. She has something like 240 of them which would have cost her around three thousand dollars if she didn’t have a medical card. She ended up only paying three dollars!
Anyhow, she will have to take three of those two times a day… five hundred milligrams each I believe. So we will see how she does after she starts all that.
Donna’s mom turned out to be okay. I don’t think I said that yet. So yeah, she’s okay.
Well, that’s about all I can write. I’ve got a crying baby over here. I’ll be back soon!

My mom update

I talked to her yesterday. Soon she will be starting chemo and radiation treatments. She’ll be taking 500mg of Xeloda (a chemo pill) and have radiation treatment 5 days a week. Those treatments should shrink the tumor.
After the chemo and radiation treatments then they will perform surgery to remove any of the cancer that is left. Hopefully they will be able to stretch her colon back enough after surgery otherwise she will have to have a colostomy, which is the only thing she is really worried about at this point. I’ll keep things updated here.

moms

I found out today that my mom has colon cancer. I know that everything will be just fine though. Gotta keep a positive attitude about things like this! She also had a full physical with x-rays and everything else you can think of. The rest of her body is perfectly healthy. Tomorrow I will find out more from her.
Also, my mother-in-law (my wife’s mother) is having tests done as well and there’s a possibility that she may also have cancer. So hopefully it won’t be a double whammy.
Keep them both in your prayers. I will keep things updated here.